i’ve always wondered what it would be like to put my ear to your chest and listen to your heart beat.

now that you’re in my arms, i can’t imagine anything better than feeling your heart beating next to mine.

i used to think that sadness is the worst thing that could ever happen to anyone. but now, i think that it is far more troubling to feel nothing.. absolutely nothing.. towards things that used to bring a smile to your lips. 

hmm.. it's a curious thing, this emptiness.

p.s.
wag ka assuming gerrrl. d na kita type. hahahaha

fish

there’s a lot of fishes in the sea, they say.

but for some people, you are not just another fish.
fishes are weighed, measured, segregated and classified.
poked and prodded. cooped up in aquariums.

for some people, you are the entire ocean.
angry, serene, turbulent.. beautiful.
the best of you. the worst of you. and they will choose both.
those people will always look forward to setting sail in your waters.

don’t forget who you are to me.

tsunami

there is just something achingly beautiful about how the waves never stop kissing the shore.. no matter how many times it is being pulled back and swept away. it rushes back home. 

why can't i give you up for the ocean?

i am a wave and you are my shore.

walk away

i knew the exact moment you became more than just another face in the crowd.

and no, it wasn’t your smile nor how you unknowingly put one on my face as well.
it wasn't how you seem to put everything in perspective.
no, it wasn't how cute you were when you said that the moon is just as big as my thumbnail. hmm.. the night sky does not seem so sad anymore.

it was when i started to read your words, every letter flowing out through your mouth that wells from your heart.
i didn't realise.. i never would have guessed. i awoke one day and suddenly valued the things that you hold dear. family friends career.

but the shitty thing about that is i also started feeling so selfish. just unbelievably selfish..
when i realised i almost broke you.. broke me.. broke the people around us.. just to keep you. with me. just a few more seconds of you.

there is no better way to make you feel the scope of how much i feel for you.
i will say good bye. not because i'm afraid. not because i have given up.
i choose your heart even if it shatters mine. keep your heart whole, babe.
i hope, one day, you will see how much you have meant to me. sometimes, missing you can be just as strong as loving you.

best things in life

you know what the best thing about you is? 

you don’t notice it.. but people want to give you the world and you’re not even asking for it.
you’re only asking for a kitkat bar. or someone who’ll listen to you talk about the level of stupidity some people can attain.
you’re not asking for a hero nor perfection because you know it doesn’t exist.
but then i want to try to be perfect anyway.. not because you demand it.. but because i think you deserve someone like that (or at least close to it). you make me want to be a better person.

you don’t see it.. but you do deserve the world. 
you deserve to be loved fiercely or none at all.

fear

stop being stupid. 

there’s nothing wrong with your love. 

your love is awesome. and whole. 

it’s the people you’re loving that is the problem. fear. just too much of it. she has to be fearless.

so hold her hand. don’t let go.

be fearless for the both of you until she learns that fear is not real.

but never let go of her hand.
because your hand is the only thing that is real. you are real.