So..

Updates huh?

There's not much to say.

Except that.. Well.. I don't know why it took me such a long time to write this. I guess I was ruminating in the fact that we actually broke up. Writing about it makes it so final.

Yeah. Marian and I broke up. Lasted 7 and half years. It was a good run. And I never regretted a day being with her. It wasn't a bad break up at all. Surprise. There were no fights. No cuts and bruises. No UFOs (as one would expect). I've never broken up with anyone before. It's an interesting feeling. And it's definitely not something I'm looking forward to feel anytime soon.

I've felt responsible somehow. I felt guilty for throwing away the most concrete thing in my life. She is my rock. Or was. She has kept me steady all these years. Now I'm trying not to drown. I guess I'm succeeding, huh? We are both dating again. She is happy. And so am I.



Eb, if you're still reading this blog, a song for you.. And thanks for the memories.


"Where I Stood"
By: Missy Higgins

I don't know what I've done
Or if I like what I've begun
But something told me to run
And honey you know me it's all or none

There were sounds in my head
LIttle voices whispering
That I should go and this should end
Oh and I found myself listening

'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood

See I thought love was black and white
That it was wrong or it was right
But you ain't leaving without a fight
And I think I am just as torn inside

'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood

And I won't be far from where you are if ever you should call
You meant more to me than anyone I ever loved at all
But you taught me how to trust myself and so I say to you
This is what I have to do

'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
Oh, she who dares to stand where I stood