it's ok.

I'll ask the sun to shine away from you today so you can cry
If that's what you want, alright
I'll ask the clouds to bring the rain for you today so you can cry.

polka dot hearts

People don't realize it but we poke holes in each other's hearts everyday.
Poke and poke. And love just bleeds out of you each time. They think it's ok because they can just refill hearts with love anyway.
And like an idiot, it does fill up again. Cool, huh? Poke. Bleed. Fill. It's a sick cycle.
We keep poking until there's just too many holes to bleed out of. And no matter how many times or how fast you fill it up, love just bleeds out even faster.
Polka dot hearts.
All we're left with are polka dot hearts. Cute.
I don't know if hearts can heal. I hope they do. It would be scary if it doesn't. I don't know how this is supposed to work. Maybe you're supposed to throw it away and another person just gives you a new one instead.

tsk tsk

You know that moment when you just can't help but go 'tsk'?

For me, it's when your girlfriend literally just freaks out when people (her cousins, high school friends, really really close friends) ask her if she wants to get married to me. Seriously? I don't get it. It's like the nth time people asked her.

I realized that I'm never, should never and will never ask her to marry me. Funny thing is, I used to be sure. My answer was simple.

Honestly, it's insulting. Hahaha.. I know I'm not the 'best catch' she'll have. I know she'll probably be happy with someone else. But dude, can't she just say that 'we're not yet thinking about it' instead of just right out saying 'waaaaa blah blah blah'?

Tsk. The look on other people's faces when they hear her say that and then turn to take a quick peek at my reaction? Priceless. Awkward. Should I just laugh? Roll my eyes? I guess my default answer of "You wish" or "Swerte mo ah" will have to suffice.

For the record, I can take very good care of any other person I choose to spend my life with. She should be asking me. And should be so lucky.

Going home..

I miss Cebu sometimes. I miss the laid back every days. I miss the simple things in life.
I miss home.

...

But I think my home has become this girl that I wake up to every morning and come home to every night.
I can't be too whiny about that.. :)

Hallow--een.

Friendster always has fun halloween parties for the kids. Fun for me 'coz I didn't have to work. Who can honestly concentrate with these little piggies running around? Kids this size scare the hell out of me. I always have this weird feeling I might forget to look down and accidentally squish one of them.

 (counting the hoard)

 (matagal nang hindi nalinisan ni Ate Ana!)

Our new QA engineer. Ayaw pa disturb ni ate butterfly! Serious sa work!

Canddyyyyyy..

Almost got ya..

Seriously. Taking pictures of these kids reminds me of taking pictures of puppies. All fur and blur.

Haha! I knew I'd get ya! Isn't she such a cutiepie? :)

There were more than 30 kids at the office. I tried to take pictures of their really cute costumes but I didn't have enough candies to bribe them into standing still. Little extortionists!!

Manananggal ni kuya guard. Galing no? It's made of basuro. He just carved it. Asttegg.

On a side note, things have been getting better. Talking helps I guess.. :)

I dunno why she likes to stick her face into my armpit when she sleeps. But me thinks it's cute.. 

And I think I'm gaining weight. Love for food (I can't even blame stress eating. I'm not stressed at all.) + being a couch potato = Flabs. I hate the holidays. I always have a headstart on gaining weight. It's only October and I have eaten 5 pounds. I wonder what I'll look like come January. Oh well.. Eat Pray Love! :)

bridge rappelling and free fallingggggg....

Phew.

My second happiness post.

I went with the TEAZONE group last Saturday to try bridge rappelling and free-falling.

The bridge is estimated to be just above 8 storeys high. The first jump was a warm up. Swiss style is just easy breezy.  See that stupid grin on my face? That's how easy it was.

Now the Aussie style (ala Tom Cruise in Mission Impossible) is a different story. You have to contemplate the meaning of life. It makes you think 'why on earth am I doing this?'. Why do I have to deal with strap wedgies? I also had the flu while doing this so pictures were the last thing on my mind. It sucked that I was sick while doing the Aussie. Imagine trying to reassure the belayer (my life depends on her) that there is no threat of dropping mucus.

This is Jeff doing the Aussie before free-falling. I forgot to ask them to take a picture of me doing it. Sucks. When you think your life is ending, you don't want them to have a souvenir. I won't make the same mistake next time. hehehe 

 Cold Cold Cold river. Its a nice swim after the adventure.

You can find TEAZONE of Facebook. Join the group if you're anything like us. They also offer rock climbing and bouldering, etc. Fees are usually from 500php to 1000php.

That's all folks. Til the next adventure!!

on trust and happiness..

I have decided to just trust her and move on with my life.

I have decided to be happy.

So..

Steps to be happy #1

Shoe shopping with my mom. Lovely lovely lovely shoesss!! Reebok Zig :D I wanna make out with it. The last time I bought shoes was 5 years ago. Sheesshh.. I was pegging the budget at 3k. Turns out, there are no more shoes that costs below 5k. The fuq. I bought this one on sale for 4k. It used to be 6k. I feel so blessed. Mhehehe

 

 Flew my mom in for some counsel. Mother knows best. And she's right of course. Plus she cleaned the apartment. ahahahaha.. She's OC like that.

 

Lunch with my mom at YABU katsu.

My mom never fails to make me feel better. Thanks Ma!

Yeah.. I'm a mother's girl. I don't have a dad. It's an immaculate conception.