walk away

i knew the exact moment you became more than just another face in the crowd.

and no, it wasn’t your smile nor how you unknowingly put one on my face as well.
it wasn't how you seem to put everything in perspective.
no, it wasn't how cute you were when you said that the moon is just as big as my thumbnail. hmm.. the night sky does not seem so sad anymore.

it was when i started to read your words, every letter flowing out through your mouth that wells from your heart.
i didn't realise.. i never would have guessed. i awoke one day and suddenly valued the things that you hold dear. family friends career.

but the shitty thing about that is i also started feeling so selfish. just unbelievably selfish..
when i realised i almost broke you.. broke me.. broke the people around us.. just to keep you. with me. just a few more seconds of you.

there is no better way to make you feel the scope of how much i feel for you.
i will say good bye. not because i'm afraid. not because i have given up.
i choose your heart even if it shatters mine. keep your heart whole, babe.
i hope, one day, you will see how much you have meant to me. sometimes, missing you can be just as strong as loving you.